Dorothy's Wedding Wednesday: The Weight Loss Hasn't Been Going Well

May 2, 2018

A couple of months ago I posted about how I wanted to get back in shape for my wedding. I started doing workouts, and kiiiiiinda started eating healthier, but honestly I haven't been consistent with it. There were weeks that I'd be super good- going to the gym every day, eating right. Then there would be weeks that completely went to hell. 

So when I got the notification on my phone that my wedding was 3 months away I started to panic. I hadn't really lost any weight, and I didn't feel any more fit than before. Nothing had really changed about my body and that's because it was so easy for me to say to myself, "What's one more bite of pizza (or whatever else I was indulging in) going to hurt? I'll just start over again tomorrow."  Then one day I was scrolling through Facebook, and I saw my friend, Nicki, post about joining the Hardcore Fitness 60 Day challenge. 

I've heard about this challenge before. My sister-in-law had done it and so did a couple of my friends. They all had really amazing results. They told me about it and, to be honest, I was intimidated by it. You have to follow a strict meal plan, work out twice a day for 6 days a week.  But when I saw that my friend had signed up, and with my wedding date right around the corner, I decided to just freaking do it. 

I had my weigh-in, "before pics," a 3D bodyscan, and assessment last week. I was dreading that because they want you to wear a black bikini to get an honest picture of yourself. I haven't worn a bikini in YEARS because I'm nowhere close to being comfortable in one. You guys, I was SHOCKED when I got my 3D scan back. I was on the phone with Steven when it came in and I couldn't believe how bad I had let myself go. My BMI is in the 37.75% percentile. I am so embarrassed at how I look in a bikini. This isn't easy for me to share because I'm scared of the judgment, and I hate how I look right now,  but I'm going to share the scan with you because someone out there is going through the exact same thing I am and I hope this gives them comfort.

 

This is the shape I used to be in:

I spy with my little eye.... @carleenryan and @manaleage lol! A much needed relaxing day at the pool with the girls ----

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I want to get back to that. I hate not feeling healthy and confident in myself. Constantly fixing my clothes because I'm insecure is not how I want to live. So instead of letting that scan get me down, I'm going to use it as motivation. No more BS. No more excuses. I know I can lose the fat and the weight. I need to really stick with this, and having a supportive group of people who are going through the exact same thing makes me feel comforted. I want to lose the fat, and keep it off beyond the wedding. I really need to get back to a healthy lifestyle for longevity. I don't want to have health problems when I'm older. Steven and I want to have kids, so I want to make sure I'm doing the right things to get my body prepared for that.

Today is Day 3 of the challenge and it's been going well so far. I've been waking up and doing my fasted cardio, which means burning 200 calories on an empty stomach, then eating my meals throughout the day, getting a bootcamp class in, and ending my day with another quick cardio session. It's a lot, but I'm in a group that has been really supportive so far. Also having a friend doing it definitely helps a lot. 

Anyways, if you're going through the same thing, I hope this blog will help/inspire you. You are not alone! WE can do this!